41 days to D day.
Been 3 hrs since we last spoke and you blocked me, and I'm already losing my mind. It's too early considering I made the call. But it's actually late to realize the loss I guess. Or maybe not. I haven't lost you yet. Another paradox. You need to be with someone first to say that you've lost em. But then again you can't ever lose someone who loves you so much. You may not be proud of it but you do. I know you do. It's been my biggest fear so far. To experience what I just now experienced. To watch you leave. Thought I was prepared for a day like this. I'd wait for you to stop talking and then wait for you to get busy with work. Then wait for you to forget it and come back to normal. But it's hard to turn a blind eye to what I'm doing to you. Can't see you waste away your life in this frustration. When I used to look at the happy couples on the road before, I was jealous. I wanted that with you. And I hated them for it....