Twenty-four

 Hi beautiful, 

"Man is a rope tied between a beast and God- a rope over a deep dark abyss.

What is great in a man is that he's a bridge not a goal:

What can be loved in a man is that he is an overture to something greater.

Something greater than achieving a goal."

                                         -FRIEDRICH NEITZSCHE

You are right. I am not the man you wanted in life. I will not disgrace your feelings by denying that I betrayed you. I am guilty. Nobody would blame you if you left right now. Nobody will have the right to raise a finger on you if you killed me with your bare hands right now. I won't bat an eye if they hanged me for this betrayal. Maybe I deserve worse. Maybe I don't even deserve your hatred. 

I'm sorry Miss Jain!

Having said that, I have something else to say to you.  

Here and now. 

You can stop reading now and stick with the options above. Maybe that would save you some misery. 

But if you continue reading, I'll be grateful. 

Here it is...

I'm glad that we are where we are right now. The constant fear, that the weak foundation of our story will come crashing down on us at any moment, is finally gone. 

We've both seen each other's best and worst sides now. And contrary to what I was fearing, I like you better now.  I can now feel the ground below my feet. I can smell the grass and hear the river flowing in the valley. I was blinded by my expectations but now I see. I love you Miss Jain. 

We are exactly where we're supposed to be. Where we were destined to be. We got through to each other just in time before the foundation crumbled from under us. 

We might not have been able to make good of this situation had we been in this spot 2 yrs ago. 

But 6 yrs 4 months 25 days and 23 hrs in, we are finally in a position to break out of the shackles of expectations and do what we wanna do. 

Absolute guarantee of no judgements. 

No image to maintain. 

Just us. In our elements. With each other. 

Forming bonds at the deepest levels. 

We can now move on from Van Der Waals forces to Covalent bonds. 

only if you want to. 

Please dont fret over how we'll go ahead. We'll figure that out as we go. 

All I wanna tell you now is that I want you to stay. 

 I offer your majesty myself. To deal with as you please. 

I have paid my penance before and I'll do so again.