Letter Twelve!
Hi Miss Jain,
had a stupid discussion with you about my life plans today. And now I sit cursing myself for ever breaking them to you. It's never the question of whether you support me in this endeavor or not. To be honest, this behavior of yours, this particular way of dealing with situations, is what keeps me grounded. Not letting me slip too lose. To a point of no return, what psychiatrists call "chronic delusional disorder". Basically you're the one helping me keeping it real.
But you should know this. There's no way that I am going to live as miserably as I was born. I still may not know much about you, but I know that you have tasted the bad days like I have. And if not the process, you're definitely gonna support me if you had the vision of the results. But then again, you're prudent enough to not tie your hopes to chance. And far from blaming you, I rather appreciate it. More than you think I do. So thank you for sticking it out so far.
I know my plans scare you. And I know why. It's because I've failed to deliver on a single one of them. And you've always been in the receiving end of the sufferings. That's to let you know that I am not oblivious of your frustration. I actually wonder what has kept you with me at all, but this chain of thought is not to be entertained.
Now to answer your million dollar-question..."What do you want from me chirag?"
. I just want you to know that I haven't seen a dream without you in it. Whatever my plans are, they're with you. Not above you. Maybe the road to those goals is a little lonely. But you should know that I have seen a woman- suffering on account of her husband's zillion attempts to build her a better life. And I know that she'll never appreciate the goodies as much as she'd have appreciated his presence in those days.
I just want you to know that I KNOW. And I'm never going to leave you alone.
Mr Sharma.
had a stupid discussion with you about my life plans today. And now I sit cursing myself for ever breaking them to you. It's never the question of whether you support me in this endeavor or not. To be honest, this behavior of yours, this particular way of dealing with situations, is what keeps me grounded. Not letting me slip too lose. To a point of no return, what psychiatrists call "chronic delusional disorder". Basically you're the one helping me keeping it real.
But you should know this. There's no way that I am going to live as miserably as I was born. I still may not know much about you, but I know that you have tasted the bad days like I have. And if not the process, you're definitely gonna support me if you had the vision of the results. But then again, you're prudent enough to not tie your hopes to chance. And far from blaming you, I rather appreciate it. More than you think I do. So thank you for sticking it out so far.
I know my plans scare you. And I know why. It's because I've failed to deliver on a single one of them. And you've always been in the receiving end of the sufferings. That's to let you know that I am not oblivious of your frustration. I actually wonder what has kept you with me at all, but this chain of thought is not to be entertained.
Now to answer your million dollar-question..."What do you want from me chirag?"
. I just want you to know that I haven't seen a dream without you in it. Whatever my plans are, they're with you. Not above you. Maybe the road to those goals is a little lonely. But you should know that I have seen a woman- suffering on account of her husband's zillion attempts to build her a better life. And I know that she'll never appreciate the goodies as much as she'd have appreciated his presence in those days.
I just want you to know that I KNOW. And I'm never going to leave you alone.
Mr Sharma.
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