Letter Thirteen!
hi there Miss Regretful!
I call you that cuz you're more full of that than any other feeling in how world right now. And it's only justified. After all you did meet a guy who lives in his fantasy world. He don't care about the naysayers...well that's something you appreciated, but then he goes on to not care about the realistic challenges you thought he would. Like thinking before getting a posting away from you. Not making you a part in his struggle. Not deliberately at least. And then not asking you to f***in WAIT. That's the most annoying thing of all.
I know that cuz I hate waiting too. And it wasn't an epiphany that made me realize that you might hate waiting as well. It was a nice long period of your ignoring me that did. And I'd like to let you to know at this point that it actually did work. I don't care if people or even you yourself think that I'm such a loser for taking my life's instructions from you. I don't care. Cuz I've had time to think. And I've decided that I'm not gonna give up on you. I cannot give up on you. Unless I have absolutely no interest in living.
You said "your trapped cuz you came way too far with a person who now you realize isn't the ideal or even NORMAL person to be with". You know what? You're absolutely right.
There is no future with a guy like me. The fantasies that I keep going on about aren't even mine. I saw those dreams, made those plans, made a vision of our lives way before I turned into this moron of a person.
Hate me. Hate me to the point where I start hating myself too. Get fed up. Irritated. Bloody sick of living this borrowed life. I guess I don't need to tell you all this. You automatically get into the "go to hell you freakin day dreamer " attitude whenever you sense even the slightest danger of me starting to make ridiculous promises. What I do need to tell you is that you should keep it up.
Have to go. A lady just went into labor.
I'll call you when I am myself again.
Mr Sharma.
I call you that cuz you're more full of that than any other feeling in how world right now. And it's only justified. After all you did meet a guy who lives in his fantasy world. He don't care about the naysayers...well that's something you appreciated, but then he goes on to not care about the realistic challenges you thought he would. Like thinking before getting a posting away from you. Not making you a part in his struggle. Not deliberately at least. And then not asking you to f***in WAIT. That's the most annoying thing of all.
I know that cuz I hate waiting too. And it wasn't an epiphany that made me realize that you might hate waiting as well. It was a nice long period of your ignoring me that did. And I'd like to let you to know at this point that it actually did work. I don't care if people or even you yourself think that I'm such a loser for taking my life's instructions from you. I don't care. Cuz I've had time to think. And I've decided that I'm not gonna give up on you. I cannot give up on you. Unless I have absolutely no interest in living.
You said "your trapped cuz you came way too far with a person who now you realize isn't the ideal or even NORMAL person to be with". You know what? You're absolutely right.
There is no future with a guy like me. The fantasies that I keep going on about aren't even mine. I saw those dreams, made those plans, made a vision of our lives way before I turned into this moron of a person.
Hate me. Hate me to the point where I start hating myself too. Get fed up. Irritated. Bloody sick of living this borrowed life. I guess I don't need to tell you all this. You automatically get into the "go to hell you freakin day dreamer " attitude whenever you sense even the slightest danger of me starting to make ridiculous promises. What I do need to tell you is that you should keep it up.
Have to go. A lady just went into labor.
I'll call you when I am myself again.
Mr Sharma.
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