nineteenth.
hey beautiful,
I am sure you look amazing right now as you read this. Probably have your glasses on. Tired of studying still you must look fresh as a morning. It's been so long now but I can totally picture you waking up in the morning. And in the night. While you're sleeping away to glory. The most peaceful thing. I am sorry I disturb you so much. I never want to. But we're always so short of time. Always.
Yet somehow we've managed to live together. I have gotten to know just what a luxury it is to wake up buried in your hair. I like to believe that we had an awesome time together. We still are. I mean we are in a bad spot right now, but we will get through and talk about it over a beer at your post exam party. And then we'd have lived a little more together. Maybe not as cuddled up as we used to be, but close enough to fall back when the time is right.
Right now you're mad at me. You said we won't talk. I am blocked on your cell phone numbers too. If someone else is reading this, they might think I am a stalker. Well honestly I may be no less. But what the hell right? I am sorry, one more time. If only you'd talk to me. But the these words won't mean as much. I have a way of making everything sound so made up. I hate that. It's like I'm always quoting someone in my words, and it gets so boring. I can feel it myself. So I don't feel like talking. Cuz it's a lost cause already. And so here we are.
Here's the thing, the reason I am not bothering you as much into forgiving me is because I really don't need your forgiveness right now. What I do need is for you to really pull this off and get the college and the seat that you want. More than anything it'll make you realize that there's so much more to life. I hope you realize that. Eventually! However long it takes. I can wait. You know how things are for me right now. I don't have an option. You chase that dream and I'll work on mine. And wait. Not wasting time waiting. Just waiting. For you to come to other side. I am pretty sure you'll come around. So until that happens I think this no phone call policy of yours is good.
I have a couple of things to take care of before I head back to my cabin in the woods. So that should help me keeping away from you. And then when I get back to work, I will have my own stuff going on. Meanwhile you'll be studying your ass off and getting nervous about this big milestone and stuff. When the day comes, I want you to remember that It's just a bloody exam. Just a bloody exam. All the best. Don't fall sick.
I will be applying for all possible exams and prepare for them and get in the zone for PG. I don't think the army is going to be much bothered by this NMC bullshit so I'll appear for NEET soon as my 4 yrs are done here. I'll have some time to decide whether to continue with the army or join residency as a civilian. So that's the plan in short. And this is enough to keep me busy up there. I promise I will be safe and responsible and always have a stock of everything from the canteen so you don't have to worry about sending me parcels. Also the coffee maker guy replaced the broken one and I have two more of your coffee packets left to finish. That should be of some help.
But you have to know, everything I just wrote was written under the pretense that this will be helpful or at least not bothersome wrt your studies. I want a lot of things from you. Expectations, and more expectations. But right now I don't. They can wait. Everything can wait. Your studies take precedence now and we can deal with everything later. I will be waiting for your call, in January, after you're through.
All the best Miss Jain, I'll see you on the other side!
I am sure you look amazing right now as you read this. Probably have your glasses on. Tired of studying still you must look fresh as a morning. It's been so long now but I can totally picture you waking up in the morning. And in the night. While you're sleeping away to glory. The most peaceful thing. I am sorry I disturb you so much. I never want to. But we're always so short of time. Always.
Yet somehow we've managed to live together. I have gotten to know just what a luxury it is to wake up buried in your hair. I like to believe that we had an awesome time together. We still are. I mean we are in a bad spot right now, but we will get through and talk about it over a beer at your post exam party. And then we'd have lived a little more together. Maybe not as cuddled up as we used to be, but close enough to fall back when the time is right.
Right now you're mad at me. You said we won't talk. I am blocked on your cell phone numbers too. If someone else is reading this, they might think I am a stalker. Well honestly I may be no less. But what the hell right? I am sorry, one more time. If only you'd talk to me. But the these words won't mean as much. I have a way of making everything sound so made up. I hate that. It's like I'm always quoting someone in my words, and it gets so boring. I can feel it myself. So I don't feel like talking. Cuz it's a lost cause already. And so here we are.
Here's the thing, the reason I am not bothering you as much into forgiving me is because I really don't need your forgiveness right now. What I do need is for you to really pull this off and get the college and the seat that you want. More than anything it'll make you realize that there's so much more to life. I hope you realize that. Eventually! However long it takes. I can wait. You know how things are for me right now. I don't have an option. You chase that dream and I'll work on mine. And wait. Not wasting time waiting. Just waiting. For you to come to other side. I am pretty sure you'll come around. So until that happens I think this no phone call policy of yours is good.
I have a couple of things to take care of before I head back to my cabin in the woods. So that should help me keeping away from you. And then when I get back to work, I will have my own stuff going on. Meanwhile you'll be studying your ass off and getting nervous about this big milestone and stuff. When the day comes, I want you to remember that It's just a bloody exam. Just a bloody exam. All the best. Don't fall sick.
I will be applying for all possible exams and prepare for them and get in the zone for PG. I don't think the army is going to be much bothered by this NMC bullshit so I'll appear for NEET soon as my 4 yrs are done here. I'll have some time to decide whether to continue with the army or join residency as a civilian. So that's the plan in short. And this is enough to keep me busy up there. I promise I will be safe and responsible and always have a stock of everything from the canteen so you don't have to worry about sending me parcels. Also the coffee maker guy replaced the broken one and I have two more of your coffee packets left to finish. That should be of some help.
But you have to know, everything I just wrote was written under the pretense that this will be helpful or at least not bothersome wrt your studies. I want a lot of things from you. Expectations, and more expectations. But right now I don't. They can wait. Everything can wait. Your studies take precedence now and we can deal with everything later. I will be waiting for your call, in January, after you're through.
All the best Miss Jain, I'll see you on the other side!
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