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 Hey hottie, 

I don't know what this is. This conversation between us. Having said so many things, I don't know how to even begin to fix this. Anoop says that I should just trust you and  the universe on this. Everything I do about this only seems to make it worse. I was away for too long I think. I'll get there. Don't lose all the hope! Don't give up on us yet!

Here's something awesome you should remember. I created this blog to write down about the reasons I was taking so long in deciding our fate. A lot of that decision was based on how mom and dad think of you... gut feeling wise. And back then you passed the screening with flying colors. Not that you needed to. I'm glad you did. Mom and dad and di were swept away. I knew who I was committing to and I did. Have stayed so ever since. Sometimes I feel that I'm a super hero with commitment as his super power. Yeah I know. Actions should speak louder... and all... but I like to think that. 

Life's what happens when you're making plans... and happen life did! All at once. Up against the world. Knee deep in a tide of problems. I began to pray. The show of ultimate despair. That agonizing wait. And yet by the time the results arrived... ten years had gone by. All this is so mind numbing... my brain shut down. They loved you so much. You loved them back. Where did love go? Yeah it's time to be practical. And I think I'm being practical. 

It'll save us a lot of effort if we put love first. Or second. At least on the list. Somewhere. Let's not forget why we started. I'm glad this encounter came right after seeing you. I couldn't have born it otherwise. 

Despise me. For a while. I'll be working on us. 

Take care hottie.